Within 24 hours of arrival I wanted to claw my way out of the city. I felt trapped. My chest was tight. I had a massive headache. I wanted to scream at everyone. I wanted… no, I needed… to escape. My instinct was to hide, to burrow down into my hotel bed and not emerge until my flight was ready to leave. But of course the traveler in me wouldn’t let that happen, the mother and the educator in me wouldn’t let that happen. It was an opportunity: A chance to examine and replace my broad expectations with the nuanced realities.
A few of Jakarta’s realities (statistical and otherwise)
- It’s metropolitan area, Jabodetabek is the 2nd largest in the world
- Approximately 10,000,000 people live here
- Just a bit less than a third of the entire population of Canada
- There are, reportedly, 1.5 million cars
- According to our driver there are an additional 3 million motorbikes
- The nuanced realities met me at the street level as we walked through the old colonial Dutch district, squeezed onto the buses with the press of humanity, and ate nasi goreng, elbow to elbow, with ten million of our brothers and sisters.
- Like durian fruit, the whole city stinks; and not just a little.
- The waterways are fetid, literally. They are actually bubbling with rot in some places.
- The air pollution defies description. Honestly, I have no words. We saw a fellow wearing a painter’s respirator on his bike to filter the air. No joke.
- The filth is unparalleled, and for perspective, Mexico City is one of my favorite places. I’m not opposed to a little good, old-fashioned urban grime. My clothing was a shade darker just from spending the afternoon on the streets. I’m not exaggerating.
- Gaping holes in the sidewalk reveal stagnant pools with floating bloated vermin, a rainbow slick of oil, and a cocktail of trash and God knows what else.
- The streets are decorated with dead rats, dying cats, puddles of vomit, feces and more.
In a word, I was repulsed. The more of the city I saw, the less I liked it, the more my initial gut reaction was reinforced, the more uncomfortable I became.
The other reality, with layer upon layer of nuance to be pulled back and examined, was not found in the brick and mortar infrastructure in Jakarta, but lay in the living, breathing population that is Jakarta; The people who live here. I’m a people watcher. I look for eyes that meet mine in the street. I observe relationships; the quiet, non-verbal communications between parent and child, husband and wife, officer and pedestrian.
Snapshots from Jakarta
A whole flock of giggling girls in sparkling white tunic uniforms from the Islamic school across the street. They giggle behind their hands and finally work up the courage to come and ask if our children will come and play. Their eyes are bright; they are clean and cared for. They remind me that childhood is universal and bridges all of the gaps between culture and religion if we will let it. When our noodle dishes arrive and our kids wave goodbye, the girls are chanting, “You are Christian, we are Islam, Yeah Islam! Yeah Islam! Yeah Islam!” and everyone is laughing.
Shopping malls, ubiquitous in Asian cities. We arrive by tuk-tuk. Dirty and loud, tuk-tuks are not allowed into the entrance drop off zone where the line of sleek black cars picks up and delivers well-heeled patrons, who must pass through security and the dress code to enter. The one we wind up in is a haven of clean air and peaceful music, in stark contrast to the city outside its doors. There’s a Jaguar store on the main floor. It’s like being transported to an alien planet. It’s like a refuge. It’s the first place that I let my guard down a little and feel like I can relax.
It makes me feel guilty and hate myself a little. I detest mall culture; I rail against consumerism and I pride myself on being the sort of traveler who’s out on the street, with the “real people,” not in the mall. And yet, this is me. It’s how I feel in Jakarta.
This city forces me to confront an ugly truth about myself. Should I be grateful? Jakarta is the first place I’ve ever been that I truly hated. The first place that I couldn’t find something to love. The first place that I’ve desperately wanted to escape, more and more with every passing moment.
Jakarta is the first place I’ve ever been that I truly hated. The first place that I couldn’t find something to love. The first place that I’ve desperately wanted to escape, more and more with every passing moment.
What Jakarta taught me (about myself)
What I discovered in the nuanced realities were things that, to be perfectly honest, I don’t love about myself. Things that I need to work on. Areas for growth and an increased understanding of myself and others.
- I discovered that I’m full of prejudices I didn’t know I had, despite years of travel.
- I discovered I take more for granted than I should.
- I discovered that my own comfort still matters too much to me.
- I discovered that my instinct for self-preservation still supersedes my desire to be a giver and a learner.
- I discovered when I’m tired and emotionally overwrought, my needs become disproportionately important.
- I discovered there are areas of life where I’m willing to point out the problem, but not to be part of the solution.
As it turns out, how I felt in Jakarta wasn’t about Jakarta at all.
Jakarta has been there for generations, in all of her stinky, messy, Big Durian glory. I’m the newcomer. I’m the one who is just beginning the journey; Jakarta’s well into hers, even if she’s just a stopover on my trip.
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